Calm

hubby is calm ... it is very nice...seems he has finally after all these years totally embraced being diabetic...I feel I can breathe...or at least take a breath.

But tomorrow is another day and the moods can change and something small can push that button that switches him from accepting to rejecting. But for now...hooray!

smooth sailing lately

You go along on rough waters and all of a sudden the sea calms and you say, "hey" things are pretty good at the moment, knowing full well that the storms will come again, but the calm is nice.

Hubby is still battling the high sugar readings but doing what he should eatingwise medswise so we are hoping it evens out or changes or we get a clue as to why it is still high.

His spirits are good...I am thankful. Raingear is ready though.

Hematoma

The sonogram discovered the lump is a hardened edged hematoma that they will check in a month to see if it has lessened. No problem now but might be if it does not go down. I am relieved.
Hubby has a new attitude this week...very upbeat...sugar still high...still chewing...but happy as a clam, which is easier to deal with than sadness and negativity...so hooray!
one day at a time...always. chin up!

Riding away...

Some run away when they can't stand their life...well, I ride away on my mountain bike and the other day I rode 18 miles...my arms were sunburned...I didn't care...it was wonderful...the sights and smells in rural NY state...the best. I feel rejuvenated.
On April 13th hubby and I were in this car accident so along with the diabetes we have been dealing with his subdural hematoma and my bruised breast which then housed a lump...so a mammogram yesterday, that found nothing and a sonogram today to see if there is anything there worth worrying about...four people in the medical profession have felt the lump so I certainly am not looking for attention or one of those people who make up stuff so they GET attention...ugh...no, that's never been me...but there is a lump and we will find out what it is...hubby joked that he does not like that I have a health concern, it is usually all about him...we both laughed hard over that. So this morning we are off to find out why there is a lump in my breast. Fun stuff...HUGS

Embracing diabetes

Tom oftens says "it sucks" when referring to being a diabetic, but last night when I joked with him about it sucking to be a diabetic he actually said it was okay and that let me know that for at least last night he was finally embracing the FACT that he is a diabetic and is okay...I burst into tears...halleluiah! the condition is not going to go away, so for him to accept it...priceless. (took 25+ years, but that's okay...we all have to accept things in our own time).

Getting there...

Okay so after all these years hubby seems to be trying to get it all together (except for the tobacco chewing, ew)and it is more settling, but since I just had the realization that I am married to diabetes I really don't feel I take any time off from thinking about it, so in a way it is harder to take a break from thinking about it now that he is attempting to do most of the right things and the VA has gotten him in a better place as far as managing pills and insulin amounts...so I am officially taking a TIME OUT right now (in my mind). THERE I did it...T.O.

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At long last...

I am delighted to have people to talk to about being married to someone who is diabetic. It appears the e-mail I have here at blogspot is not working for whatever reason so if any one wants to message/e-mail me you can do so by using tbarry3@rochester.rr.com